241 days of Autumn, 192 days of Winter and 22 days of Spring….
Autumn, a season of leaves changing from green to cooper, it’s
as if a breath of slow death was blown over the once alive and green lawns and
trees. The season my life was in, life
was slowly hanging on by its last treads.
Nothing made sense, hurt was the feeling I was walking around with and
here I had to put my pride in my pocket, walk to work on many occasions and
also ask for a food parcel from church.
There was a moment where autumn felt a little bit more
familiar, like home and I opened my mind up to new possibilities, I took on a
new work position, I moved into a bigger place and I felt a little bit better. From the all the new beginnings, things
started looking up however one always need to remember that after autumn comes winter.
Like a thief in the night, all life, even that of which was
still hanging on for dear life was killed.
Everything once copper or brown, now the darkest of black. Winter settled in and with it came the likes
of being split up from what we were used to,
that oh so familiar feeling in my back came back like a sharp reminder
of thing gone before and me not learning my lesson, fighting for the little ray
of light keeping my two feet firmly placed on the ground, the fact that this
season did not hold any truth for love on the horizon and with Winter, we had
to say goodbye. Goodbye to two very
important individuals we never for one moment thought of losing so soon. We had our lives shorten just a little when
one of our children went to hospital, while dreading the immune virus that
spread in her little body.
The moment of
the winter coming to an end was when a new friendship turned to dust sooner
than it was formed, when reality set in and for the first time it really made
sense to me that you are the only one that looks out for you and even after that,
my body decided it had enough, I myself was forced to rest with a kidney virus,
one I didn’t even know I had.
Spring, from tomorrow it will be Spring, I have
decided. I will look for all the new
blossoms of life opening up and giving God my hand I held to myself for a few
weeks and I am just going to walk with him again, as I should have from the
beginning. The next 22 days of Spring
will hold something of a new beginning, one I will look for or work for ever
day until its Summer.
365 Days of Summer for 2017
My goal for Summer will be to dedicate my time to getting to
know God, the only man that should be of importance in my life, with that also
to finally set out to reduce, overcome and finalize my debt. I will dedicate my time to get to know my
children individually, focus on that undivided attention. I will not stand or let anyone stand in my
way to my goal of becoming one of the most successful BDM’s in my company. I will teach myself self-discipline, read at
least 10 new books and focus on becoming the best person I can be, saying yes
more and never to let a lie flow over my lips again regardless of the outcome.
I hope my journey has helped some of you, may it also show
you that you can make it through anything and always to trust your gut.
One year of dedication to my unapologetically me, to my 365
days o Summer….
….. to be continued
